spring quarter 2008.

you'll be the death of me. just like pacific retina...
i'm sorry guys if i'm MIA, but this quarter is seriously going to be kicking my ass in READING time. good thing nam and i have a nice den where we can study, but i like to change it up a bit. so i'd probably floating around the house reading. and reading. and reading. it's endless.

when nam got home from work, we just took the bike out to eat and ride around. we were going to this teriyaki spot in everett, near the naval station, but it was closed on a tuesday. what is that?!

i talked to megan today when nam and i were eating. it's so nice to hear her voice, i swear i text that girl like no other and she hasn't been getting to me, but i understand.
it's almost michael's birthday--so that's why he has all the attention WHATEVE.

i got a lot of funny text messages today from bfs and boyfriend. they were hilarious. i'm glad that they make me happy. my fortune cookie said that the difficult road will be soften by great friends some shit like that. and i think it's absolutely right.



for what i thought doom's day will be, it turned out to be not so bad. the devilish part was reading for almost all my evening. i didn't even have this class yet, and i'm already reading for it. i did some french too. tomorrow is school again. whoopdie doo, but i do get to see my friends, since i'm assuming we all have the same break time on MWF--i hope that's for sure. i'm skipping my people of latin america so i can be home before michael's SHINGDIG. i'm excited to see all our friends.

i'll update tomorrow if anything is interesting.

btw, i can someone remind me to charge my camera. i need pictures for this damn blog. and for michael's anniversaire.

"can i have an iced grande CHEYTEE with vanilla soy please?"

so it's april fools. well i call it doom's day. i thought april fools was a funny day--not so funny.
you know what else is today?-- the first day of school. and do you know what sucks about the first day of school? it's on a tuesday. and jacquelyn has ONE CLASS on tuesday and thursdays. and it happens to be at nine in the morning.
but whateve. i'm getting past this day because its mega nice outside, and no one can resist a little sunshine after shitty spring break weather.
and it's also the beginning of my life with nam. because we've decided that this is when life actually starts for us. spring break was a breeze since i didn't do shit but wait for him to come home---tan and get my nails did--so this is a test. foreal.

CONFERENCE THIS WEEKEND

let's see--agenda update =] after i updated yesterday i got ready to get boogy with my man. hahaha. well not really, we just headed to everett community college for nam to run some errands and then we went to alderwood so i can run some arrands (btw, these jeans are still REALLY TIGHT but i will not get bigger ones because that means i'm getting bigger and i rather hurt my hips than my ego), and then we went to north seattle to pick up the lovely michael and beautiful krst. the four of us went on one of our date thingys. nam took us out and michael is next for pashal-ing time to wasabi bistro. we went to china town to this little chinese restaurant purple dot cafe, which turned out to be a very sheek very cute restaurant. the food was good that i couldn't breath afterwards. nam always makes good recommendations for restaurants. =]

we dropped those BITCHES off. good times at purple dot. lots of good laughs. hahaha even though nam told a secret no one was suppose to KNOW, he told them anyway. so now i'm getting shit for it, but it's just getting even bitches.

today after french (which stated earlier, is my ONLY class of the day, tuesday AND THURSDAY) i went to buy my books. i want to take more pictures to put on my blog, and i guess when i get home, i'll satisify this goal, by taking pictures of my books. my books were only like 124 dollars. or something like that. CHEAP for four books. i've gone up to four hundred PLENTY of times, but this time was refreshing. i feel bad because nam dropped more than four bills. i'll take a picutre of both =]

i might lead a discussion group for the beginning anthropology classes. they're mainly freshmen so i'm not too intimidated. i remember being in those discussion classes and wishing i had a better leader. i hope i do well. i hope i get it period?

tomorrow is michael's birthday--so i'm skipping my peoples of latin america for his ass. i know i know, honorable friend i must say. nam and i are skipping our last classes- so that classifies nam as an honorable boyfriend =]

i'll definitely take pictures there. see ya!

last day of spring break.

this weekend was filled of lots of little things--nothin poppin' though. can i just say it snowed like no other in everett. i swear we were almost stuck there going to a nam's cousin's birthday. it was cool.

sunday--we saw the candas. so uncle abner and kuya paul for away at church, but saw michael and jovelle ..oh yeah and auntie yolie.


"oh MA. CAN I HAVE A SLIDE KICK. OH MA.. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY"--in a high pitch michael canda voice.


hahaha.


tonight nam and i are going to seattle to celebrate the last day of spring/ beginning of a new quarter. and we're also taking michael and krst with us.



i miss oak harbor. not so much the place, but the people living there-- betina joan randy greg shan and april i hella miss them.

i'll write tomorrow. after school :(



here comes western--

what really saddens me...

..is that i can't talk to you guys about it because you guys all assume i'm not over him. but you're happy for me and nam? i don't get it.

ew please, i'm definitely over him, but when i talk to you guys about internal conflicts with myself and just my own struggles. it's like you guys don't understand. you guys just say "oh you're not over him" i don't wanna hear you guys contradicting everything i've been saying to you guys. i've made great progress since my break up. i found a great man that i actually love and that's so great to me. so when you guys tell me that i'm not over him it seems all my progress is void.

please.. if i can't go to you guys, without your already made up assumptions, who am i suppose to go to? i already told you guys i'm done with him, and since you guys don't really know me with anyone else, you guys don't know how i'm like with exs. i'm done with them when i say so--and i said so. so please stop telling me i'm not over him. because i'm KAPUT.

meez pleez

last night was fairly interesting.

nam and i definitely had some things on our chest that we needed to take care of. unfortunately, that involves other people. i never regretted anything in my life. i usually just come out with some lesson i've learned and all that mumbo jumbo, but honestly if i could regret one thing, it'd be that--but thanks for the lessons learned and i don't know if you'll ever believe me, but i never did that.

so last night was interesting. i really wish it wasn't a topic we had to talk about, but i guess under the circumstances, it was an inevitable conversation. otherwise, let's try our HARDEST to never bring it up.

on that topic--i really don't know who to talk to about this kind of situation. also known as "doomsday". my heart isn't there anymore, but my mind keeps thinking about it. i can feel myself have flashes of it. and what it used to represent--years with an s and april fools.. i don't want to be with you ever again nor do i want to be your friend. most of all, i can't even have you in the same city without feeling ill. but i miss what it represented. besides you blog, i can't really talk about this one an unbias opinion. and if i do talk to someone, they don't really know whats going on. i miss what april first represented. guys always leave me before this two year mark. and i can't talk to my boyfriend about it because he really doesn't deserve his girlfriend feeling sad because of some other dude. this thing is going to pass. but i do miss him--not miss him as my boyfriend, but everything that i THOUGHT we were going to be and what this day was suppose to signify. there i said it outloud--but at the end of the day, you treated me like shit and you love someone else--and i will never love you again, but i pay homage to you. good run--with bad knees.

nam--i'm sorry for this, but you don't deserve this. thanks for being understanding. don't worry. after the first, im sure this will all pass. eight three one.


anyway. i'm done with that. so the past TWO HOURS i've been on guess who's blog? freakin' PAUL CANDA. i don't know why..but his blog entries are really interesting. he's had his blog for awhile, and i actually only read it now. weird. but thanks kuya paul for being a significant part of my spring break. hahahaha.

since you contributed to my spring break--- here's a picture you've taken:



hahaha. good summer times. michael and i were fucking hungry! so we went across the street and got chinese food.
HEAVILY NOTED: MICHAEL EATING AND JACKIE'S LONG HAIR.


okay. i'm going to do laundry and eat. and think of some clever way to make it up to you.

laterdays players.

btw..

i got new people on my homie list. hahaha makes me happy. peep it