all frosting and no cupcake.

i just want my wii back. i still want it back, but god it's taking so long. because he refuses to give it back because of its value to him. unfortunate for him, i don't care too much about him---but i'm saying that and the rest of this blog in the nicest way possible. i'm smiling typing this.

i talked to the ex today. holy crazy because i haven't yelled at anyone like that in so long. it was cool to see that life's treating him good because life hasn't been better for me. because fortunate enough for me, this break up was the best thing to ever happened to me (besides NOT getting the wii). i could just steal it back inspite of NOT giving my WII back, but i'm not stooping low. i think today was closure with the ex..

i realized something today. not that i haven't realized it earlier, but i don't think i can ever be back with him. i can't see me with him anymore.. the title of this post is for him. because he has a fun personality.. which is all the frosting..but no substantial boyfriend credentials. which is the cupcake. fighting with him sucks, it used to kill my mood like no other, being yelled at in public, talking so much shit about me..TO ME., being treated the way i did. all of that sucked, but i'm glad to know that he's doing well. and congratulations on your new job. 'bout time. good thing you're prospect is pointing you in directions i never could. i'm happy for you. deep down i am VERY VERY happy for you. our relationship didn't go the way we wanted. and i understand why you want to keep the wii. but you have to understand why i want it back. i do mind that you're keeping it...

francis. i could thank you so much for the fun times i've had with you, but i don't remember any of them. i just remember the first time we spoke nicely to each other. and that was today. i forgot what you looked like. i see pictures. and i remember certain landmarks aka your nose and eye brows. but i don't remember what you look like.

i'm glad we broke up--because it was the best thing we've ever done together. and i'm glad you're peaceful. and i'm glad we talked nicely today---after the yelling of course (because what's jackie and francis without yelling?). i'm sure we can be civil now. but we could never be friends like we used to be.

i miss kicking it with kuya paul/chris/daniel and all the older guys though. today they're going to watch a movie. and i used to do that. kuya paul talked to me about that today. and i used to watch your games. i'm still a huge OH fan..

...when michael drops me off i got to see nam.

honestly, today after fighting with francis, and seeing my nam, it was the best feeling in the entire world. this 'closure' i guess made me love nam that much more because even though i thought francis was the one for me, boy was i was wrong. nam has it all. he's the frosting, cupcake, and sprinkles. he's stable. he's exciting. he's supportive, and everything i wanted my boyfriend to be. he's great in bed. hahaha (just kidding...not really). i haven't been this happy in a relationship ever. this is definitely the best relationship i've been in since i could remember. he makes life and doing all this worth it. alot of this is corny, but sometimes expressing love can come with corny lines. how you think people fall in love with each other?

i hope to go a long way with nam. i love being this in love. and being loved like this. thank you nam for all you've ever done for me. and keeping your promise that i'd never feel that way again.

life's amazing. in the end, even though i didn't get the wii, my life is amazing. and i'm fufilled. with friends family and nam.
i couldn't ask for more.