last night was fairly interesting.

nam and i definitely had some things on our chest that we needed to take care of. unfortunately, that involves other people. i never regretted anything in my life. i usually just come out with some lesson i've learned and all that mumbo jumbo, but honestly if i could regret one thing, it'd be that--but thanks for the lessons learned and i don't know if you'll ever believe me, but i never did that.

so last night was interesting. i really wish it wasn't a topic we had to talk about, but i guess under the circumstances, it was an inevitable conversation. otherwise, let's try our HARDEST to never bring it up.

on that topic--i really don't know who to talk to about this kind of situation. also known as "doomsday". my heart isn't there anymore, but my mind keeps thinking about it. i can feel myself have flashes of it. and what it used to represent--years with an s and april fools.. i don't want to be with you ever again nor do i want to be your friend. most of all, i can't even have you in the same city without feeling ill. but i miss what it represented. besides you blog, i can't really talk about this one an unbias opinion. and if i do talk to someone, they don't really know whats going on. i miss what april first represented. guys always leave me before this two year mark. and i can't talk to my boyfriend about it because he really doesn't deserve his girlfriend feeling sad because of some other dude. this thing is going to pass. but i do miss him--not miss him as my boyfriend, but everything that i THOUGHT we were going to be and what this day was suppose to signify. there i said it outloud--but at the end of the day, you treated me like shit and you love someone else--and i will never love you again, but i pay homage to you. good run--with bad knees.

nam--i'm sorry for this, but you don't deserve this. thanks for being understanding. don't worry. after the first, im sure this will all pass. eight three one.


anyway. i'm done with that. so the past TWO HOURS i've been on guess who's blog? freakin' PAUL CANDA. i don't know why..but his blog entries are really interesting. he's had his blog for awhile, and i actually only read it now. weird. but thanks kuya paul for being a significant part of my spring break. hahahaha.

since you contributed to my spring break--- here's a picture you've taken:



hahaha. good summer times. michael and i were fucking hungry! so we went across the street and got chinese food.
HEAVILY NOTED: MICHAEL EATING AND JACKIE'S LONG HAIR.


okay. i'm going to do laundry and eat. and think of some clever way to make it up to you.

laterdays players.